肖申克的救赎-2

　　It comes as no surprise to most these days that there's a lot of buggery going on inside thewalls - except to some of the new fish, maybe, who have the misfortune to be young,slim, good-looking, and unwary - but homosexuality, like straight sex, comes in ahundred different shapes and forms. There are men who can't stand to be without sex ofsome kind and turn to another man to keep from going crazy. Usually what follows is anarrangement between two fundamentally "Heterosexual men, although I've sometimeswondered if they are quite as heterosexual as they thought they were going to be whenthey get back to their wives or their girlfriends.

There are also men who get 'turned' in prison. In the current parlance 1 they 'go gay', or'come out of the closet'. Mostly (but not always) they play the female, and their favoursare competed for fiercely.

And then there are the sisters.

They are to prison society what the rapist is to the society outside the walls. They'reusually long-timers, doing hard bullets for brutal 2 crimes. Their prey 3 is the young, theweak, and the inexperienced ... or, as in the case of Andy Dufresne, the weak-looking.

Their hunting grounds are the showers, the cramped 4, tunnel-like area way behind theindustrial washers in the laundry, sometimes the infirmary. On more than one occasionrape has occurred in the closet-sized projection 6 booth behind the auditorium 7. Most oftenwhat the sisters take by force they could have had for free, if they wanted it; those whohave been turned always seem to have 'crushes' on one sister or another, like teenage girlswith their Sinatras, Presleys, or Redfords. But for the sisters, the joy has always been intaking it by force... and I guess it always will be.

Because of his small size and fair good looks (and maybe also because of that veryquality of self-possession I had admired), the sisters were after Andy from the day hewalked in. If this was some kind of fairy story, I'd tell you that Andy fought the goodfight until they left him alone. I wish I could say that, but I can't. Prison is no fairy-taleworld.

The first time for him was in the shower less than three days after he joined our happyShawshank family. Just a lot of slap and tickle 8 that time, I understand. They like to sizeyou up before they make their real move, like jackals finding out if the prey is as weakand hamstrung as it looks.

Andy punched back and bloodied 9 the lip of a big, hulking sister named Bogs 10 Diamond -gone these many years since to who knows where. A guard broke it up before it could goany further, but Bogs promised to get him - and Bogs did.

The second time was behind the washers in the laundry. A lot has gone on in that long,dusty, and narrow space over the years; the guards know about it and just let it be. It'sdim and littered with bags of washing and bleaching 11 compound, drums of Hexlitecatalyst, as harmless as salt if your hands are dry, murderous as battery acid if they'rewet. The guards don't like to go back there. There's no room to manoeuvre 12, and one of thefirst things they teach them when they come to work in a place like this is to never let thecons get you in a place where you can't back up.

Bogs wasn't there that day, but Henry Backus, who had been washroom foreman downthere since 1922, told me that four of his friends were. Andy held them at bay for a whilewith a scoop 14 of Hexlite, threatening to throw it in their eyes if they came any closer, buthe tripped trying to back around one of the big Washex four-pockets. That was ail 15 it took.

They were on him.

I guess the phrase gang-rape 5 is one that doesn't change much from one generation to thenext. That's what they did to him, those four sisters. They bent 16 him over a gearbox andone of them held a Phillips screwdriver 17 to his temple while they gave him the business. Itrips you up some, but not bad - am I speaking from personal experience, you ask? - I onlywish I weren't. You bleed for a while. If you don't want some clown asking you if youjust started your period, you wad up a bunch of toilet paper and keep it down the back ofyour underwear until it stops. The bleeding really is like a menstrual flow; it keeps up fortwo, maybe three days, a slow trickle 19. Then it stops. No harm done, unless they've donesomething even more unnatural 20 to you. No physical harm done - but rape is rape, andeventually you have to look at your face in the mirror again and decide what to make ofyourself.

Andy went through that alone, the way he went through everything alone in those days.

He must have come to the conclusion that others before him had come to, namely, thatthere are only two ways to deal with the sisters: fight them and get taken, or just gettaken.

He decided 21 to fight When Bogs and two of his buddies 22 came after him a week or so afterthe laundry incident ('I heard ya got broke in,' Bogs said, according to Ernie, who wasaround at the time), Andy slugged it out with them. He broke the nose of a fellow namedRooster MacBride, a heavy-gutted farmer who was in for beating his step-daughter todeath. Rooster died in here, I'm happy to add.

They took him, all three of them. When it was done, Rooster and the other egg - it mighthave been Pete Verness, but I'm not completely sure - forced Andy down to his knees.

Bogs Diamond stepped in front of him. He had a pearl-handled razor in those days withthe words Diamond Pearl engraved 25 on both sides of the grip. He opened it and said, I'mgonna open my fly now, mister man, and you're going to swallow what I give you toswallow. And when you done swallowed mine, you're gonna swallow Rooster's. I guessyou done broke his nose and I think he ought to have something to pay for it'

Andy said, 'Anything of yours that you stick in my mouth, you're going to lose it.'

Bogs looked at Andy like he was crazy, Ernie said.

'No,' he told Andy, talking to him slowly, like Andy was a stupid kid. 'You didn'tunderstand what I said. You do anything like that and I'll put all eight inches of this steelinto your ear. Get it?'

'I understand what you said. I don't think you understand me. I'm going to bite whateveryou stick into my mouth. You can put that razor in my brain, I guess, but you shouldknow that a sudden serious brain injury causes the victim to simultaneously 26 urinate,defecate... and bite down.'

He looked up at Bogs, smiling that little smile of his, old Ernie said, as if the three ofthem had been discussing stocks and bonds with him instead of throwing it to him just ashard as they could. Just as if he was wearing one of his three-piece bankers' suits insteadof kneeling on a dirty broom-closet floor with his pants around his ankles and bloodtrickling down the insides of his thighs 27.

'In fact,' he went on, 'I understand that the bite-reflex is sometimes so strong that thevictim's jaws 28 have to be pried 29 open with a crowbar or a jackhandle.'

Bogs didn't put anything in Andy's mouth that night in late February of 1948, and neitherdid Rooster MacBride, and so far as I know, no one else ever did, either. What the threeof them did was to beat Andy within an inch of his life, and all four of them ended updoing a jolt 30 in solitary 31. Andy and Rooster MacBride went by way of the infirmary.

How many times did that particular crew have at him? I don't know. I think Rooster losthis taste fairly early on -being in nose-splints for a month can do that to a fellow -andBogs Diamond left off that summer, all at once.

That was a strange thing. Bogs was found in his cell, badly beaten, one morning in earlyJune, when he didn't show up in the breakfast nose-count He wouldn't say who had doneit, or how they had gotten to him, but being in my business, I know that a screw can bebribed to do almost anything accept get a gun for an inmate 32. They didn't make bigsalaries then, and they don't now. And in those days there was no electronic lockingsystem, no closed-circuit TV, no master-switches which controlled whole areas of theprison. Back in 1948, each cellblock had its own turnkey. A guard could have beenbribed real easy to let someone - maybe two or three someones - into the block, and, yes,even into Diamond's cell.

Of course a job like that would have cost a lot of money. Not by outside standards, no.

Prison economics are on a smaller scale. When you've been in here a while, a dollar billin your hand looks like a twenty did outside. My guess is, that if Bogs was done, it costsomeone a serious piece of change - fifteen bucks 34, well say, for the turnkey, and two orstore apiece for each of the lump-up guys.

I'm not saying it was Andy Dufresne, but I do know that he brought in five hundreddollars when he came, and he was a banker in the straight world - a man who understandsbetter than the rest of us the ways in which money can become power.

And I know this: After the beating - the three broken ribs 35, the haemorrhaged eye, thesprained back and the dislocated hip 36 - Bogs Diamond left Andy alone. In fact, after thathe left everyone pretty much alone. He got to be like a high wind in the summertime, allbluster and no bite. You could say, in fact, that he turned into a 'weak sister'.

That was the end of Bogs Diamond, a man who might eventually have killed Andy ifAndy hadn't taken steps to prevent it (if it was him who took the steps). But it wasn't theend of Andy's trouble with the sisters. There was a little hiatus, and then it began again,although not so hard nor so often. Jackals like easy prey, and there were easier pickingsaround than Andy Dufresne.

He always fought them, that's what I remember. He knew, I guess, that if you let themhave at you even once, without fighting it, it got that much easier to let them have theirway without fighting next time. So Andy would turn up with bruises 37 on his face everyonce in a while, and there was the matter of the two broken fingers six or eight monthsafter Diamond's beating. Oh yes - and sometime in late 1949, the man landed in theinfirmary with a broken cheekbone that was probably the result of someone swinging anice chunk 38 of pipe with the business-end wrapped in flannel 39. He always fought back, andas a result, he did his time in solitary. But don't think solitary was the hardship for Andythat it was for some men. He got along with himself.

The sisters was something he adjusted himself to - and then, in 1950, it stopped almostcompletely. That is a part of my story that 111 get to in due time.

In the fall of 1948, Andy met me one morning in the exercise yard and asked me if Icould get him half a dozen rock-blankets.

'What the hell are those?' I asked.

He told me that was just what rockhounds called them; they were polishing cloths aboutthe size of dishtowels. They were heavily padded, with a smooth side and a rough side -the smooth side like fine-grained sandpaper, the rough side almost as abrasive 40 asindustrial steel wool (Andy also kept a box of that in his cell, although he didn't get itfrom me - I imagine he kited it from the prison laundry).

I told him I thought we could do business on those, and I ended up getting them from thevery same rock-and-gem shop where I'd arranged to get the rock-hammer. This time Icharged Andy my usual ten per cent and not a penny more. I didn't see anything lethal 41 oreven dangerous in a dozen 7" x 7" squares of padded cloth. Rock-blankets, indeed.

It was about five months later that Andy asked if I could get him Rita Hayworth. Thatconversation took place in the auditorium, during a movie-show. Nowadays we get themovie-shows once or twice a week, but back then the shows were a monthly eventUsually the movies we got had a morally uplifting message to them, and this one, TheLost Weekend, was no different. The moral was that it's dangerous to drink. It was amoral we could take some comfort in.

Andy manoeuvred to get next to me, and about halfway 42 through the show he leaned alittle closer and asked if I could get him Rita Hayworth. I'll tell you the truth, it kind oftickled me. He was usually cool, calm, and collected, but that night he was jumpy as hell,almost embarrassed, as if he was asking me to get him a load of Trojans or one of thosesheepskin-lined gadgets 44 that are supposed to 'enhance your solitary pleasure,' as themagazines put it. He seemed overcharged, a man on the verge 45 of blowing his radiator 46.

'I can get her,' I said. 'No sweat, calm down. You want the big one or the little one?' Atthat time Rita was my best girl (a few years before it had been Betty Grable) and shecame in two sizes. For a buck 33 you could get the little Rita. For two-fifty you could havethe big Rita, four feet high and all woman.

'The big one,' he said, not looking at me. I tell you, he was a hot sketch 47 that night He wasblushing just like a kid trying to get into a kootch show with his big brother's draft-card.

'Can you do it?'

'Take it easy, sure I can. Does a bear shit in the woods?' The audience was applaudingand catcalling as the bugs 48 came out of the walls to get Ray Milland, who was having abad case of the DT's.

'How soon?'

'A week. Maybe less.'

'Okay.' But he sounded disappointed, as if he had been hoping I had one stuffed down mypants right then. 'How much?"I quoted him the wholesale 49 price. I could afford to give him this one at cost; he'd been agood customer, what with his rock-hammer and his rock-blankets. Furthermore, he'dbeen a good boy - on more than one night when he was having his problems with Bogs,Rooster, and the rest, I wondered how long it would be before he used the rock-hammerto crack someone's head open.

Posters are a big part of my business, just behind the booze and cigarettes, usually half astep ahead of the reefer. In the 60s the business exploded in every direction, with a lot ofpeople wanting funky 50 hang-ups like Jimi Hendrix, Bob Dylan, that Easy Rider poster.

But mostly it's girls; one pinup queen after another.

A few days after I spoke 51 to Ernie, a laundry driver I did business with back then broughtin better than sixty posters, most of them Rita Hayworths. You may even remember thepicture; I sure do. Rita is dressed - sort of- in a bathing suit, one hand behind her head,her eyes half closed, those full, sulky red lips parted. They called it Rita Hayworth, butthey might as well have called it Woman in Heat.

The prison administration knows about the black market, in case you were wondering.

Sure they do. They probably know as much about my business as I do myself. They livewith it because they know that a prison is like a big pressure cooker, and there have to bevents somewhere to let off steam. They make the occasional bust 53, and I've done time insolitary a time or three over the years, but when it's something like posters, they wink 54.

Live and let live. And when a big Rita Hayworth went up in some fishie's cell, theassumption was that it came in the mail from a friend or a relative. Of course all the carepackagesfrom friends and relatives are opened and the contents inventoried 55, but whogoes back and re-checks the inventory 56 sheets for something as harmless as a RitaHayworth or an Ava Gardner pin-up? When you're in a pressure-cooker you learn to liveand let live or somebody will carve you a brand-new mouth just above the Adam's apple.

You learn to make allowances.

It was Ernie again who took the poster up to Andy's cell, 14, my own, 6. And it was Erniewho brought back the written in Andy's careful hand, just one word: Thanks.'

A little while later, as they filed us out for morning chow, I glanced into his ceil and sawRita over his bunk 57 in all her swimsuited glory, one hand behind her head, her eyes halfclosed,those soft, satiny lips parted. It was over his bunk when he could look at hernights, after lights out, in the glow of the arc sodiums in the exercise yard.

But in the bright morning sunlight, there were dark slashes 58 across her face - the shadowof the bars on his single slit-window.

Now I'm going to tell you what happened in mid-May of 1950 that finally ended Andy'sthree-year series of skirmishes with the sisters. It was also the incident which eventuallygot him out of the laundry and into the library, where he filled out his work-time until heleft our happy little family earlier this year.

You may have noticed now much of what I've told you Lready is hearsay 59 - someone sawsomething and told me and I told you. Well, in some cases I've simplified it even morethan it really was, and have actually repeated (or will repeat) fourth- or fifth-handinformation. That's the way it s here. The grapevine is very real, and you have to use it ifyou're going to stay ahead. Also, of course, you have to know how to pick out the grainsof truth from the chaff 60 of lies, rumours 61, and wish-it-had-beens.

You may also have gotten the idea that I'm describing someone who's more legend thanman, and I would have to agree that there's some truth to that. To us long-timers whoknew Andy over a space of years, there was an element of fantasy to him, a sense,almost, of myth-magic, if you get what I mean. That story I passed on about Andyrefusing to give Bogs Diamond a head-job is part of that myth, and how he kept onfighting the sisters is part of it, and how he got the library job is part of it, too ... but withone important difference: I was there and I saw what happened, and I swear on mymother's name that it's all true. The oath of a convicted murderer may not be worth much,but believe this: I don't lie.

Andy and I were on fair speaking terms by then. The guy fascinated me. Looking back tothe poster episode, I see there's one thing I neglected to tell you, and maybe I should.

Five weeks after he hung Rita up (I'd forgotten all about it by then, and had gone on toother deals), Ernie passed a small white box through the bars of my cell.

'From Dufresne,' he said, low, and never missed a stroke with his push-broom.

Thanks, Ernie,' I said, and slipped him half a pack of Camels.

Now what the hell was this, I was wondering as I slipped the cover from the box. Therewas a lot of white cotton inside, and below that...

I looked for a long time. For a few minutes it was like I didn't even dare touch them, theywere so pretty. There's a crying shortage of pretty things in the slam, and the real pity ofit is that a lot of men don't even seem to miss them.

There were two pieces of quartz 62 in that box, both of them carefully polished. They hadbeen chipped into driftwood shapes. There were little sparkles of iron pyrites in them likeflecks of gold. If they hadn't been so heavy, they would have served as a fine pair ofmen's cufflinks - they were that close to being a matched setHow much work went into creating those two pieces? Hours and hours after lights out, Iknew that First the chipping and shaping, and then the almost endless polishing andfinishing with those rock-blankets. Looking at them, I felt the warmth that any man orwoman feels when he or she is looking at something pretty, something that has beenworked and made - that's the thing that really separates us from the animals, I think - andI felt something else, too. A sense of awe 63 for the man's brute 64 persistence 65. But I neverknew just how persistent 66 Andy Dufresne could be until much later.

In May of 1950, the powers that be decided that the roof of the licence-plate factoryought to be resurfaced with roofing tar 18. They wanted it done before it got too hot upthere, and they sued for volunteers for the work, which was planned to take about a week.

More than seventy men spoke up, because it was outside work and May is one damn finemonth for outside work. Nine or ten names were drawn 67 out of a hat, and two of themhappened to be Andy's and my own.

For the next week we'd be marched out to the exercise yard after breakfast, with twoguards up front and two morebehind ... plus all the guards in the towers keeping a weathereye on the proceedings 68 through their field-glasses for goodmeasure.

Four of us would be carrying a big extension ladder on those morning marches -1 alwaysgot a kick out of the way Dickie Betts, who was on that job, called that sort of ladder anextensible - and we'd put it up against the side of that low, lit building. Then we'd startbucket-brigading hot buckets of tar up to the roof. Spill that shit on you and you'djitterbug all the way to the infirmary.

There were six guards on the project, all of them picked on the basis of seniority. It wasalmost as good as a week's vacation, because instead of sweating it out in the laundry orthe plate-shop or standing 70 over a bunch of cons 13 cutting pulp 71 or brush somewhere out inthe willy wags, they were having a regular May holiday in the sun, just sitting there withtheir backs up against the low parapet, shooting the bull back and forth 72.

They didn't even have to keep more than half an eye on us, because the south wall sentrypost was close enough so that rte fellows up there could have spit their chews on us, ifihsy'd wanted to. If anyone on the roof-sealing party had made one funny move, it wouldtake four seconds to cut him smack 74 in two with .45 calibre machine-gun bullets. So thosescrews just sat there and took their ease. All they needed was a couple of six-packsburied in crushed ice, and they would have been the lords of all creation.

One of them was a fellow named Byron Hadley, and in :hat year of 1950, he'd been atShawshank longer than I had. Longer than the last two wardens 76 put together, as a matterof "act. The fellow running the show in 1950 was a prissy-looking downcast Yankeenamed George Dunahy. He had a degree in penal 77 administration. No one liked him, as faras I could tell, except the people who had gotten him his appointment. I heard that hewasn't interested in anything but compiling statistics for a book (which was laterpublished by a small New England outfit 78 called Light Side Press, where he probably hadto pay to have it done), who won the intramural baseball championship each September,and getting a death-penalty law passed in Maine. A regular bear for the death-penalty wasGeorge Dunahy. He was fired off the job in 1953, when it came out he was running adiscount auto 79 repair service down in the prison garage and splitting the profits with ByronHadley and Greg Stammas. Hadley and Stammas came out of that one okay - they wereold hands at keeping their asses 69 covered - but Dunahy took a walk. No one was sorry tosee him go, but nobody was exactly pleased to see Greg Stammas step into his shoes,either. He was a short man with a tight, hard gut 24 and the coldest brown eyes you eversaw. He always had a painful, pursed little grin on his face, as if he had to go to thebathroom and couldn't quite manage it. During Stammas's tenure 80 as warden 75 there was alot of brutality 81 at Shawshank, and although I have no proof, I believe there were maybehalf a dozen moonlight burials in the stand of scrub forest that lies east of the prison.

Dunahy was bad, but Greg Stammas was a cruel, wretched, cold-hearted man.

He and Byron Hadley were good friends. As warden, George Dunahy was nothing but aposturing figurehead; it was Stammas, and through him, Hadley, who actuallyadministered the prison.

Hadley was a tail, shambling man with thinning red hair. He sunburned easily and hetalked loud and if you didn't move fast enough to suit him, he'd clout 82 you with his stick.

On that day, our third on the roof, he was talking to another guard named MertEntwhistle.

Hadley had gotten some amazingly good news, so he was griping about it. That was hisstyle - he was a thankless man with not a good word for anyone, a man who wasconvinced that the whole world was against him. The world had cheated him out of thebest years of his life, and the world would be more than happy to cheat him out of therest. I have seen some screws that I thought were almost saintly, and I think I know whythat happens - they are able to see the difference between their own lives, poor andstruggling as they might be, and the lives of the men they are paid by the state to watchover. These guards are able to formulate 83 a comparison concerning pain. Others can't, orwon't.

For Byron Hadley there was no basis of comparison. He could sit there, cool and at hisease under the warm May sun and find the gall 84 to mourn his own good luck while lessthan ten feet away a bunch of men were working and sweating and burning their hands ongreat big buckets filled with bubbling tar, men who had to work so hard in their ordinaryround of days that this looked like a respite 85. You may remember the old question, the onethat's supposed to define your outlook on life when you answer it. For Byron Hadley theanswer would always be half empty, the glass is half empty. Forever and ever, amen. Ifyou gave him a cool drink of apple cider, he'd think about vinegar. If you told him hiswife had always been faithful to him, he'd tell you it was because she was so damn ugly.

So there he sat, talking to Mert Entwhistle loud enough for all of us to hear, his broadwhite forehead already starting to redden with the sun. He had one hand thrown backover the low parapet surrounding the roof. The other was on the butt 52 of his .38.

We all got the story along with Mert. It seemed that Hadley's older brother had gone offto Texas some fourteen years ago and the rest of the family hadn't heard from the son of abitch since. They had all assumed he was dead, and good riddance. Then, a week and ahalf ago, a lawyer had called them long-distance from Austin. It seemed that Hadley'sbrother had died four months ago, and a rich man at that ('It's frigging incredible howlucky some assholes can get,' this paragon 86 of gratitude 87 on the plate-shop roof said). Themoney had come as a result of oil and oil-leases, and there was close to a million dollars.

No, Hadley wasn't a millionaire - that might have made even him happy, at least for awhile - but the brother had left a pretty damned decent bequest 88 of thirty-five thousanddollars to each surviving member of his family back in Maine, if they could be found.

Not bad. Like getting lucky and winning a sweepstakes.

But to Byron Hadley the glass was always half-empty. He spent most of the morningbitching to Mert about the bite that the goddam government was going to take out of hiswindfall. "They'll leave me about enough to buy a new car with,' he allowed, 'and thenwhat happens? You have to pay the damn taxes on the car, and the repairs andmaintenance, you get your goddam kids pestering 89 you to take 'em for a ride with the topdown -'

'And to drive it, if they're old enough,' Mert said. Old Mert Entwhistle knew which sidehis bread was buttered on, and he didn't say what must have been as obvious to him as tothe rest of us: If that money's worrying you so bad, Byron old kid old sock, I'll just take itoff your hands. After all, what are friends for?

That's right, wanting to drive it, wanting to learn to drive on it, for Chrissake,' Byron saidwith a shudder 90. 'Then what happens at the end of the year? If you figured the tax wrongand you don't have enough left over to pay the overdraft 91, you got to pay out of your ownpocket, or maybe even borrow it from one of those kikey loan agencies. And they audityou anyway, you know. It don't matter. And when the government audits 92 you, theyalways take more. Who can fight Uncle Sam? He puts his hand inside your shirt andsqueezes your tit until it's purple, and you end up getting the short end. Christ.'

He lapsed 93 into a morose 94 silence, thinking of what terrible bad luck he'd had to inherit that$35,000. Andy Dufresne had been spreading tar with a big Padd brush less than fifteenfeet away and now he tossed it into his pail and walked over to where Mert and Hadleywere sitting.

We all tightened 95 up, and I saw one of the other screws, Tim Youngblood, drag his handdown to where his pistol was bolstered 96. One of the fellows in the sentry 73 tower struck hispartner on the arm and they both turned, too. For one moment I thought Andy was goingto get shot, or clubbed, or Then he said, very softly, to Hadley: 'Do you trust your wife?'

Hadley just stared at him. He was starting to get red in the face, and I knew that was abad sign. In about three seconds he as going to pull his billy and give Andy the butt endof it right in the solar plexus, where that big bundle of nerves is. A hard enough hit therecan kill you, but they always go for it. If itdoesn't kill you it will paralyze you longenough to forget whatever cute move it was that you had planned.

"Boy," Hadley said, I'll give you just one chance to pick up that Padd. And then you'regoin' off this roof on your head.'

Andy just looked at him, very calm and still. His eyes were like ice. It was as if he hadn'theard. And I found myself wanting to tell him how it was, to give him the crash course.

The crash course is you never let on that you hear the guards talking, you never try tohorn in on their conversation unless you're asked (and then you always tell them just whatthey wanting to hear and shut up again). Black man, white man, red man., yellow man, inprison it doesn't matter because we've got our own brand of equality. In prison everycon's a nigger and you have to get used to the idea if you intend to survive men likeHadley and Greg Staminas, who really would kill you. just as soon as look at you. Whenyou're in stir you belong to the state and if you forget it, woe 97 is you. I've known menwho've lost eyes, men who've lost toes and fingers; I knew one man who lost the tip ofhis penis and counted himself lucky that was all he lost. I wanted to tell Andy that it wasalready too late. He could go back and pick up his brush and there would still be somebig lug 23 waiting for him in the showers that night, ready to charlie-horse both of his legsand leave him writhing 98 on the cement. You could buy a lug like rat for a pack ofcigarettes or three Baby Ruths. Most of all, I wanted to tell him not to make it any worsethan it already was.

What I did was to keep on running tar onto the roof as if niching at all was happening.

Like everyone else, I look after n? own ass 43 first. I have to. It's cracked already, and inShawshank there have always been Hadleys wiling 99 to finish the job of breaking it.

Andy said, 'Maybe I put it wrong. Whether you trust her or not is immaterial. Theproblem is whether or not you believe she would ever go behind your back, try tohamstring you.'

Hadley got up. Mert got up. Tim Youngblood got up. Hadley's face was as red as the sideof a firebarn. 'Your only, problem,' he said, 'is going to be how many bones you still getunbroken. You can count them in the infirmary. Come on, Mert We're throwing thissucker over the side.'

Tim Youngblood drew his gun. The rest of us kept tarring like mad. The sun beat down.

They were going to do it; Hadley and Mert were simply going to pitch him over the side.

Terrible accident Dufresne, prisoner 81433-SHNK, was taking a couple of empties downand slipped on the ladder. Too bad.

They laid hold of him, Mert on the right arm, Hadley on the left. Andy didn't resist. Hiseyes never left Hadley's red, horsey face.

'If you've got your thumb on her, Mr Hadley,' he said in that same calm, composed voice,'there's not a reason why you shouldn't have every cent of that money. Final score, MrByron Hadley thirty-five thousand, Uncle Sam zip.'

Mert started to drag him towards the edge. Hadley just stood still. For a moment Andywas like a rope between them in a tug-of-war game. Then Hadley said, 'Hold on onesecond, Mert. What do you mean, boy?'

'I mean, if you've got your thumb on your wife, you can give it to her,' Andy said.

'You better start making sense, boy, or you're going over.'

"The government allows you a one-time-only gift to your spouse 100,' Andy said. 'It's goodup to sixty thousand dollars.'

Hadley was now looking at Andy as if he had been poleaxed. 'Naw, that ain't right,' hesaid. 'Tax free?'

'Tax free,' Andy said. 'IRS can't touch cent one.'

'How would you know a thing like that?'

Tim Youngblood said: 'He used to be a banker, Byron. I s'pose he might-'

'Shut ya head, Trout 101,' Hadley said without looking at him. Tim Youngblood flushed andshut up. Some of the guards called him Trout because of his thick lips and buggy eyes.

Hadley kept looking at Andy. 'You're the smart banker who shot his wife. Why should Ibelieve a smart banker like you? So I can wind up in here breaking rocks right alongsideyou? You'd like that, wouldn't you?'

Andy said quietly, 'If you went to jail for tax evasion 102, you'd go to a federal penitentiary,not Shawshank. But you won't. The tax-free gift to the spouse is a perfectly 103 legalloophole. I've done dozens ... no, hundreds of them'. It's meant primarily for people withsmall businesses to pass on, or for people who come into one-time-only windfalls. Likeyourself.'

'I think you're lying,' Hadley said, but he didn't - you could see he didn't. There was anemotion dawning on his face, something that was grotesque 104 overlying that long, uglycountenence and that receding 105, sunburned brow. An almost obscene emotion when seenon the features of Byron Hadley. It was hope.

'No, I'm not lying. There's no reason why you should take my word for it, either. Engagea lawyer -'

'Ambulance-chasing highway-robbing cocksuckers!'Hadley cried.

Andy shrugged 106. "Then go to the IRS. They'll tell you the same thing for free. Actually,you don't need me to tell you at all. You would have investigated the matter for yourself.'

'You fucking-A. I don't need any smart wife-killing banker to show me where the bearshit in the buckwheat.'

'You'll need a tax lawyer or a banker to set up the gift for you and that will cost yousomething,' Andy said. 'Or ... if you were interested, I'd be glad to set it up for you nearlyfree of charge. The price would be three beers apiece for my co-workers -'

'Co-workers,' Mert said, and let out a rusty 107 guffaw 108. He slapped his knee. A real kneeslapperwas old Mert, and I hope he died of intestinal 109 cancer in a part of the world weremorphine is as of yet undiscovered. 'Co-workers, ain't that cute? Co-workers! You ain'tgot any -'

'Shut your friggin' trap,' Hadley growled 110, and Mert shut.

Hadley looked at Andy again. 'What was you saying?'

'I was saying that I'd only ask three beers apiece for my co-workers, if that seems fair,'

Andy said. 'I think a man feels more like a man when he's working out of doors in thespringtime if he can have a bottle of suds. That's only my opinion. It would go downsmooth, and I'm sure you'd have their gratitude.'

I have talked to some of the other men who were up there that day - Rennie Martin,Logan St Pierre, and Paul Bonsaint were three of them - and we all saw the same thingthen ...felt the same thing. Suddenly it was Andy who had the upper hand. It was Hadleywho had the gun on his hip and the billy in his hand, Hadley who had his friend GregStaminas behind him and the whole prison administration behind Stammas, the wholepower of the state behind that, but all at once in that golden sunshine it didn't matter, andI felt my heart leap up in my chest as it never had since the truck drove me and fourothers through the gate back in 1938 and I stepped out into the exercise yard.

Andy was looking at Hadley with those cold, clear, calm eyes, and it wasn't just thethirty-five thousand then, we all agreed on that. I've played it over and over in my mindand I know. It was man against man, and Andy simply forced him, the way a strong mancan force a weaker man's wrist to the table in a game of Indian wrestling. There was noreason, you see, why Hadley couldn't've given Mert the nod at that very minute, pitchedAndy overside onto his head, and still taken Andy's advice.

No reason. But he didn't.

'I could get you all a couple of beers if I wanted to,' Hadley said. 'A beer does taste goodwhile you're workin'.' The colossal 111 prick 112 even managed to sound magnanimous.

'I'd just give you one piece of advice the IRS wouldn't bother with,' Andy said. His eyeswere fixed 113 unwinkingly on Hadley's. 'Make the gift to your wife if you're sure. If youthink there's even a chance she might double-cross you or backshoot you, we could workout something else -'

'Double-cross me?' Hadley asked harshly. 'Double-cross me! Mr Hotshot Banker, if sheate her way through a boxcar of Ex-Lax, she wouldn't dare fart unless I gave her the nod.'

Mert, Youngblood, and the other screws yucked it up dutifully. Andy never cracked asmile.

'I'll write down the forms you need,' he said. 'You can get them at the post office, and I'llfill them out for your signature.'

That sounded suitably important, and Hadley's chest swelled 114. Then he glared around atthe rest of us and hollered, "What are you jimmies starin' at? Move your asses,goddammit!' He looked back at Andy. 'You come over here with me, hotshot. And listento me well: if you're Jewing me somehow, you're gonna find yourself chasing your headaround Shower C before the week's out.'

'Yes, I understand that,' Andy said softly.

And he did understand it. The way it turned out, he understood a lot more than I did -more than any of us did.

That's how, on the second-to-last day of the job, the convict crew that tarred the platefactoryroof in 1950 ending up sitting in a row at ten o'clock on a spring morning,drinking Black Label beer supplied by the hardest screw that ever walked a turn atShawshank Prison. That beer was piss-warm, but it was still the best I ever had in my life.

We sat and drank it and felt the sun on our shoulders, and not even the expression of halfamusement, half-contempt on Hadley's face - as if he was watching apes drink beerinstead of men -could spoil it. It lasted twenty minutes, that beer-break, and for thosetwenty minutes we felt like free men. We could have been drinking beer and tarring theroof of one of our own houses.

Only Andy didn't drink. I already told you about his -linking habits. He sat hunkereddown in the shade, hands dangling 115 between his knees, watching us and smiling a little.

It's amazing how many men remember him that way, and amazing how many men wereon that work-crew when Andy Dufresne faced down Byron Hadley. I thought there werenine or ten of us, but by 1955 there must have been two hundred of us, maybe more ... ifyou believed what you heard.

So, yeah - if you asked me to give you a flat-out answer to the question of whether I'mtrying to tell you about a man or a legend that got made up around the man, like a pearlaround a little piece of grit 116 - I'd have to say that the answer lies somewhere in between.

All I know for sure is that Andy Dufresne wasn't much like me or anyone else I everknew since I came inside. He brought in five hundred dollars jammed up his back porch,but somehow that graymeat son of a bitch managed to bring in something else as well. Asense of his own worth, maybe, or a feeling that he would be the winner in the end ... ormaybe it was only a sense of freedom, even inside these goddamned grey walls. It was akind of inner light he carried around with him. I only knew him to lose that light once,and that is also a part of this story.