TED演讲：我无家可归的一年(3)-英语课

时间：2018-12-18 作者：英语课 分类：TED演讲教育篇

英语课

　　When winter weather set in, the temperatures dropped below freezing. 当冬天来临的时候，温度骤降到零度以下。

　　And they stayed there. And I faced a whole new set of challenges 1. 然后就一直这么冷。我又遇到了一堆新问题，
　　I parked a different place every night so I would avoid being noticed and hassled by the police. I didn't always succeed. 每晚我的车都停在不同的地方。这样才可以不让警察发现以至于和警察争吵。当然，并不是每次都成功。
　　But I felt out of control of my life. And I don't know when or how it happened, 但是，我觉得我已无力掌控自己的生活了。我也不知道什么时候或者是如何发生的，
　　but the speed at which I went from being a talented writer and journalist to being a homeless woman, living in a van, took my breath 2 away. 我这么快就从一个有才的写手，新闻从业者变成一个无家可归，住在车里的女人这简直是快的难以置信。
　　I hadn't changed. My I.Q. hadn't dropped. 我并没有变。我的智商没有降低。
　　My talent, my integrity 3, my values, everything about me remained the same. 我的才能，我的正直，我的价值，所有关于我的这些东西都还是一样。
　　But I had changed somehow. I spiraled deeper and deeper into a depression 4. 但是从某种程度上，我还是改变了，我越来越沮丧，像一个漩涡一样不断地往下沉。
　　And eventually someone referred me to a homeless health clinic. 后来有人介绍我去一个专为无家可归之人开的健康诊所。
　　And I went. I hadn't bathed in three days. I was as smelly 5 and as depressed 6 as anyone in line. 我去了。我有三天都没有洗澡了，我和其他那些排队的人一样沮丧，身上的味道也很难闻。
　　I just wasn't drunk 7 or high. And when several of the homeless men realized that, 我只是没有喝醉或者兴奋。当一些无家可归的人意识到，
　　including a former university professor, they said, "You aren't homeless. Why are you really here?" 包括一个以前在大学任教的教授，他们说：“你不是无家可归，你真正在这里的原因是什么？”
　　Other homeless people didn't see me as homeless, but I did. 其他的无家可归的人不把我当作是无家可归的人看待。但是我自己是这么认为的。
　　Then the professor listened to my story and he said, 后来，教授听了我的故事后他说，
　　"You have a job. You have hope. The real homeless don't have hope." “你有工作，有希望。真正无家可归的人并没有希望可言。”
　　A reaction to the medication the clinic gave me for my depression left me suicidal. 诊所针对我沮丧开的药物的副作用让我有点自杀的倾向。
　　And I remember thinking, "If I killed myself, no one would notice." 我还记得当时想，“如果我自杀了，可能没人会发现的。”