【有声英语文学名著】夜色温柔 Book 3（5）

Tender Is the Night - Book Three
by F. Scott Fitzgerald
Chapter 5
Nicole went to the window and bent 1 over the sill to take a look at the rising altercation 2 on the terrace; the April sun shone pink on the saintly face of Augustine, the cook, and blue on the butcher's knife she waved in her drunken hand. She had been with them since their return to Villa 3 Diana in February.
Because of an obstruction 4 of an awning 5 she could see only Dick's head and his hand holding one of his heavy canes 7 with a bronze knob on it. The knife and the cane 6, menacing each other, were like tripos and short sword in a gladiatorial combat. Dick's words reached her first:
"—care how much kitchen wine you drink but when I find you digging into a bottle of Chablis Moutonne—"
"You talk about drinking!" Augustine cried, flourishing her sabre. "You drink—all the time!"
Nicole called over the awning: "What's the matter, Dick?" and he answered in English:
"The old girl has been polishing off the vintage wines. I'm firing her—at least I'm trying to."
"Heavens! Well, don't let her reach you with that knife."
Augustine shook her knife up at Nicole. Her old mouth was made of two small intersecting cherries.
"I would like to say, Madame, if you knew that your husband drinks over at his Bastide comparatively as a day-laborer—"
"Shut up and get out!" interrupted Nicole. "We'll get the gendarmes 8."
"You'll get the gendarmes! With my brother in the corps 10! You—a disgusting American?"
In English Dick called up to Nicole:
"Get the children away from the house till I settle this."
"—disgusting Americans who come here and drink up our finest wines," screamed Augustine with the voice of the commune.
Dick mastered a firmer tone.
"You must leave now! I'll pay you what we owe you."
"Very sure you'll pay me! And let me tell you—" she came close and waved the knife so furiously that Dick raised his stick, whereupon she rushed into the kitchen and returned with the carving 11 knife reinforced by a hatchet 12.
The situation was not prepossessing—Augustine was a strong woman and could be disarmed 13 only at the risk of serious results to herself—and severe legal complications which were the lot of one who molested 14 a French citizen. Trying a bluff 15 Dick called up to Nicole:
"Phone the poste de police." Then to Augustine, indicating her armament, "This means arrest for you."
"Ha-ha!" she laughed demoniacally; nevertheless she came no nearer. Nicole phoned the police but was answered with what was almost an echo of Augustine's laugh. She heard mumbles 16 and passings of the word around—the connection was suddenly broken.
Returning to the window she called down to Dick: "Give her something extra!"
"If I could get to that phone!" As this seemed impracticable, Dick capitulated. For fifty francs, increased to a hundred as he succumbed 17 to the idea of getting her out hastily, Augustine yielded her fortress 18, covering the retreat with stormy grenades of "Salaud!" She would leave only when her nephew could come for her baggage. Waiting cautiously in the neighborhood of the kitchen Dick heard a cork 19 pop, but he yielded the point. There was no further trouble—when the nephew arrived, all apologetic, Augustine bade Dick a cheerful, convivial 20 good-by and called up "All revoir, Madame! Bonne chance!" to Nicole's window.
The Divers 21 went to Nice and dined on a bouillabaisse, which is a stew 22 of rock fish and small lobsters 23, highly seasoned with saffron, and a bottle of cold Chablis. He expressed pity for Augustine.
"I'm not sorry a bit," said Nicole.
"I'm sorry—and yet I wish I'd shoved her over the cliff."
There was little they dared talk about in these days; seldom did they find the right word when it counted, it arrived always a moment too late when one could not reach the other any more. To-night Augustine's outburst had shaken them from their separate reveries; with the burn and chill of the spiced broth 9 and the parching 24 wine they talked.
"We can't go on like this," Nicole suggested. "Or can we?—what do you think?" Startled that for the moment Dick did not deny it, she continued, "Some of the time I think it's my fault—I've ruined you."
"So I'm ruined, am I?" he inquired pleasantly.
"I didn't mean that. But you used to want to create things—now you seem to want to smash them up."
She trembled at criticizing him in these broad terms—but his enlarging silence frightened her even more. She guessed that something was developing behind the silence, behind the hard, blue eyes, the almost unnatural 26 interest in the children. Uncharacteristic bursts of temper surprised her—he would suddenly unroll a long scroll 27 of contempt for some person, race, class, way of life, way of thinking. It was as though an incalculable story was telling itself inside him, about which she could only guess at in the moments when it broke through the surface.
"After all, what do you get out of this?" she demanded.
"Knowing you're stronger every day. Knowing that your illness follows the law of diminishing returns."
His voice came to her from far off, as though he were speaking of something remote and academic; her alarm made her exclaim, "Dick!" and she thrust her hand forward to his across the table. A reflex pulled Dick's hand back and he added: "There's the whole situation to think of, isn't there? There's not just you." He covered her hand with his and said in the old pleasant voice of a conspirator 28 for pleasure, mischief 29, profit, and delight:
"See that boat out there?"
It was the motor yacht of T. F. Golding lying placid 30 among the little swells 31 of the Nicean Bay, constantly bound upon a romantic voyage that was not dependent upon actual motion. "We'll go out there now and ask the people on board what's the matter with them. We'll find out if they're happy."
"We hardly know him," Nicole objected.
"He urged us. Besides, Baby knows him—she practically married him, doesn't she—didn't she?"
When they put out from the port in a hired launch it was already summer dusk and lights were breaking out in spasms 32 along the rigging of the Margin 33. As they drew up alongside, Nicole's doubts reasserted themselves.
"He's having a party—"
"It's only a radio," he guessed.
They were hailed—a huge white-haired man in a white suit looked down at them, calling:
"Do I recognize the Divers?"
"Boat ahoy, Margin!"
Their boat moved under the companionway; as they mounted Golding doubled his huge frame to give Nicole a hand.
"Just in time for dinner."
A small orchestra was playing astern.
"I'm yours for the asking—but till then you can't ask me to behave—"
And as Golding's cyclonic 34 arms blew them aft without touching 35 them, Nicole was sorrier they had come, and more impatient at Dick. Having taken up an attitude of aloofness 36 from the gay people here, at the time when Dick's work and her health were incompatible 37 with going about, they had a reputation as refusers. Riviera replacements 38 during the ensuing years interpreted this as a vague unpopularity. Nevertheless, having taken such a stand, Nicole felt it should not be cheaply compromised for a momentary 39 self-indulgence.
As they passed through the principal salon 40 they saw ahead of them figures that seemed to dance in the half light of the circular stern. This was an illusion made by the enchantment 41 of the music, the unfamiliar 42 lighting 43, and the surrounding presence of water. Actually, save for some busy stewards 44, the guests loafed on a wide divan 45 that followed the curve of the deck. There were a white, a red, a blurred 46 dress, the laundered 47 chests of several men, of whom one, detaching and identifying himself, brought from Nicole a rare little cry of delight.
"Tommy!"
Brushing aside the Gallicism of his formal dip at her hand, Nicole pressed her face against his. They sat, or rather lay down together on the Antoninian bench. His handsome face was so dark as to have lost the pleasantness of deep tan, without attaining 48 the blue beauty of Negroes—it was just worn leather. The foreignness of his depigmentation by unknown suns, his nourishment 49 by strange soils, his tongue awkward with the curl of many dialects, his reactions attuned 50 to odd alarms—these things fascinated and rested Nicole—in the moment of meeting she lay on his bosom 51, spiritually, going out and out… . Then self-preservation reasserted itself and retiring to her own world she spoke 52 lightly.
"You look just like all the adventurers in the movies—but why do you have to stay away so long?"
Tommy Barban looked at her, uncomprehending but alert; the pupils of his eyes flashed.
"Five years," she continued, in throaty mimicry 53 of nothing. "Much too long. Couldn't you only slaughter 54 a certain number of creatures and then come back, and breathe our air for a while?"
In her cherished presence Tommy Europeanized himself quickly.
"Mais pour nous héros," he said, "il nous faut du temps, Nicole. Nous ne pouvons pas faire de petits exercises d'héroisme—il faut faire les grandes compositions."
"Talk English to me, Tommy."
"Parlez français avec moi, Nicole."
"But the meanings are different—in French you can be heroic and gallant 55 with dignity, and you know it. But in English you can't be heroic and gallant without being a little absurd, and you know that too. That gives me an advantage."
"But after all—" He chuckled 56 suddenly. "Even in English I'm brave, heroic and all that."
She pretended to be groggy 57 with wonderment but he was not abashed 58.
"I only know what I see in the cinema," he said.
"Is it all like the movies?"
"The movies aren't so bad—now this Ronald Colman—have you seen his pictures about the Corps d'Afrique du Nord? They're not bad at all."
"Very well, whenever I go to the movies I'll know you're going through just that sort of thing at that moment."
As she spoke, Nicole was aware of a small, pale, pretty young woman with lovely metallic 59 hair, almost green in the deck lights, who had been sitting on the other side of Tommy and might have been part either of their conversation or of the one next to them. She had obviously had a monopoly of Tommy, for now she abandoned hope of his attention with what was once called ill grace, and petulantly 60 crossed the crescent of the deck.
"After all, I am a hero," Tommy said calmly, only half joking. "I have ferocious 61 courage, usually, something like a lion, something like a drunken man."
Nicole waited until the echo of his boast had died away in his mind—she knew he had probably never made such a statement before. Then she looked among the strangers, and found as usual, the fierce neurotics 62, pretending calm, liking 63 the country only in horror of the city, of the sound of their own voices which had set the tone and pitch… . She asked:
"Who is the woman in white?"
"The one who was beside me? Lady Caroline Sibly-Biers."—They listened for a moment to her voice across the way:
"The man's a scoundrel, but he's a cat of the stripe. We sat up all night playing two-handed chemin-de-fer, and he owes me a mille Swiss."
Tommy laughed and said: "She is now the wickedest woman in London—whenever I come back to Europe there is a new crop of the wickedest women from London. She's the very latest—though I believe there is now one other who's considered almost as wicked."
Nicole glanced again at the woman across the deck—she was fragile, tubercular—it was incredible that such narrow shoulders, such puny 64 arms could bear aloft the pennon of decadence 65, last ensign of the fading empire. Her resemblance was rather to one of John Held's flat-chested flappers than to the hierarchy 66 of tall languid blondes who had posed for painters and novelists since before the war.
Golding approached, fighting down the resonance 67 of his huge bulk, which transmitted his will as through a gargantuan 68 amplifier, and Nicole, still reluctant, yielded to his reiterated 69 points: that the Margin was starting for Cannes immediately after dinner; that they could always pack in some caviare and champagne 70, even though they had dined; that in any case Dick was now on the phone, telling their chauffeur 71 in Nice to drive their car back to Cannes and leave it in front of the Café des Alliées where the Divers could retrieve 72 it.
They moved into the dining salon and Dick was placed next to Lady Sibly-Biers. Nicole saw that his usually ruddy face was drained of blood; he talked in a dogmatic voice, of which only snatches reached Nicole:
"… It's all right for you English, you're doing a dance of death… . Sepoys in the ruined fort, I mean Sepoys at the gate and gaiety in the fort and all that. The green hat, the crushed hat, no future."
Lady Caroline answered him in short sentences spotted 73 with the terminal "What?" the double-edged "Quite!" the depressing "Cheerio!" that always had a connotation of imminent 74 peril 75, but Dick appeared oblivious 76 to the warning signals. Suddenly he made a particularly vehement 77 pronouncement, the purport 78 of which eluded 79 Nicole, but she saw the young woman turn dark and sinewy 80, and heard her answer sharply:
"After all a chep's a chep and a chum's a chum."
Again he had offended some one—couldn't he hold his tongue a little longer? How long? To death then.
At the piano, a fair-haired young Scotsman from the orchestra (entitled by its drum "The Ragtime 81 College Jazzes of Edinboro") had begun singing in a Danny Deever monotone, accompanying himself with low chords on the piano. He pronounced his words with great precision, as though they impressed him almost intolerably.
 
"There was a young lady from hell,
Who jumped at the sound of a bell,
Because she was bad—bad—bad,
She jumped at the sound of a bell,
From hell (BOOMBOOM)
From hell (TOOTTOOT)
There was a young lady from hell—"
 
"What is all this?" whispered Tommy to Nicole.
The girl on the other side of him supplied the answer:
"Caroline Sibly-Biers wrote the words. He wrote the music."
"Quelle enfanterie!" Tommy murmured as the next verse began, hinting at the jumpy lady's further predilections 82. "On dirait qu'il récite Racine!"
On the surface at least, Lady Caroline was paying no attention to the performance of her work. Glancing at her again Nicole found herself impressed, neither with the character nor the personality, but with the sheer strength derived 83 from an attitude; Nicole thought that she was formidable, and she was confirmed in this point of view as the party rose from table. Dick remained in his seat wearing an odd expression; then he crashed into words with a harsh ineptness 84.
"I don't like innuendo 85 in these deafening 87 English whispers."
Already half-way out of the room Lady Caroline turned and walked back to him; she spoke in a low clipped voice purposely audible to the whole company.
"You came to me asking for it—disparaging 88 my countrymen, disparaging my friend, Mary Minghetti. I simply said you were observed associating with a questionable 89 crowd in Lausanne. Is that a deafening whisper? Or does it simply deafen 86 you?"
"It's still not loud enough," said Dick, a little too late. "So I am actually a notorious—"
Golding crushed out the phrase with his voice saying:
"What! What!" and moved his guests on out, with the threat of his powerful body. Turning the corner of the door Nicole saw that Dick was still sitting at the table. She was furious at the woman for her preposterous 90 statement, equally furious at Dick for having brought them here, for having become fuddled, for having untipped the capped barbs 91 of his irony 92, for having come off humiliated—she was a little more annoyed because she knew that her taking possession of Tommy Barban on their arrival had first irritated the Englishwoman.
A moment later she saw Dick standing 93 in the gangway, apparently 94 in complete control of himself as he talked with Golding; then for half an hour she did not see him anywhere about the deck and she broke out of an intricate Malay game, played with string and coffee beans, and said to Tommy:
"I've got to find Dick."
Since dinner the yacht had been in motion westward 95. The fine night streamed away on either side, the Diesel 96 engines pounded softly, there was a spring wind that blew Nicole's hair abruptly 97 when she reached the bow, and she had a sharp lesion of anxiety at seeing Dick standing in the angle by the flagstaff. His voice was serene 98 as he recognized her.
"It's a nice night."
"I was worried."
"Oh, you were worried?"
"Oh, don't talk that way. It would give me so much pleasure to think of a little something I could do for you, Dick."
He turned away from her, toward the veil of starlight over Africa.
"I believe that's true, Nicole. And sometimes I believe that the littler it was, the more pleasure it would give you."
"Don't talk like that—don't say such things."
His face, wan 25 in the light that the white spray caught and tossed back to the brilliant sky had none of the lines of annoyance 99 she had expected. It was even detached; his eyes focussed upon her gradually as upon a chessman to be moved; in the same slow manner he caught her wrist and drew her near.
"You ruined me, did you?" he inquired blandly 100. "Then we're both ruined. So—"
Cold with terror she put her other wrist into his grip. All right, she would go with him—again she felt the beauty of the night vividly 101 in one moment of complete response and abnegation—all right, then—
—but now she was unexpectedly free and Dick turned his back sighing. "Tch! tch!"
Tears streamed down Nicole's face—in a moment she heard some one approaching; it was Tommy.
"You found him! Nicole thought maybe you jumped overboard, Dick," he said, "because that little English poule slanged you."
"It'd be a good setting to jump overboard," said Dick mildly.
"Wouldn't it?" agreed Nicole hastily. "Let's borrow life-preservers and jump over. I think we should do something spectacular. I feel that all our lives have been too restrained."
Tommy sniffed 102 from one to the other trying to breathe in the situation with the night. "We'll go ask the Lady Beer-and-Ale what to do—she should know the latest things. And we should memorize her song 'There was a young lady from l'enfer.' I shall translate it, and make a fortune from its success at the Casino."
"Are you rich, Tommy?" Dick asked him, as they retraced 103 the length of the boat.
"Not as things go now. I got tired of the brokerage business and went away. But I have good stocks in the hands of friends who are holding it for me. All goes well."
"Dick's getting rich," Nicole said. In reaction her voice had begun to tremble.
On the after deck Golding had fanned three pairs of dancers into action with his colossal 104 paws. Nicole and Tommy joined them and Tommy remarked: "Dick seems to be drinking."
"Only moderately," she said loyally.
"There are those who can drink and those who can't. Obviously Dick can't. You ought to tell him not to."
"I!" she exclaimed in amazement 105. "I tell Dick what he should do or shouldn't do!"
But in a reticent 106 way Dick was still vague and sleepy when they reached the pier 107 at Cannes. Golding buoyed 108 him down into the launch of the Margin whereupon Lady Caroline shifted her place conspicuously 109. On the dock he bowed good-by with exaggerated formality, and for a moment he seemed about to speed her with a salty epigram, but the bone of Tommy's arm went into the soft part of his and they walked to the attendant car.
"I'll drive you home," Tommy suggested.
"Don't bother—we can get a cab."
"I'd like to, if you can put me up."
On the back seat of the car Dick remained quiescent 110 until the yellow monolith of Golfe Juan was passed, and then the constant carnival 111 at Juan les Pins where the night was musical and strident in many languages. When the car turned up the hill toward Tarmes, he sat up suddenly, prompted by the tilt 112 of the vehicle and delivered a peroration 113:
"A charming representative of the—" he stumbled momentarily, "—a firm of—bring me Brains addled 114 a l'Anglaise." Then he went into an appeased 115 sleep, belching 116 now and then contentedly 117 into the soft warm darkness.