【英文短篇小说】The Ledge（2）

Narrated 1 by John Glover
It was time to do it. Talking was done. I let myself think of Marcia one last time, her light-brown hair, her wide grey eyes, her lovely body, and then put her out of my mind for good. No more looking down, either. It would have been too easy to get paralysed, looking down through that space. Too easy to just freeze up until you lost your balance or just fainted from fear. It was time for tunnel vision. Time to concentrate on nothing but left foot, right foot.
I began to move to the right, holding on to the balcony's railing as long as I could. It didn't take long to see I was going to need all the tennis muscle my ankles had. With my heels beyond the edge, those tendons would be taking all my weight.
I got to the end of the balcony, and for a moment I didn't think I was going to be able to let go of that safety. I forced myself to do it. Five inches, hell, that was plenty of room. If the ledge 2 were only a foot off the ground instead of 400 feet, you could breeze around this building in four minutes flat, I told myself. So just pretend it is.
Yeah, and if you fall 'from a ledge a foot off the ground, you just say rats, and try again. Up here you get only one chance.
I slid my right foot further and then brought my left foot next to it. I let go of the railing. I put my open hands up, allowing the palms to rest against the rough stone of the apartment building. I caressed 3 the stone. I could have kissed it.
A gust 4 of wind hit me, snapping the collar of my jacket against my face, making my body sway op the ledge. My heart jumped into my throat and stayed there until the wind had died down. A strong enough gust would have peeled me right off my perch 5 and sent me flying down into the night. And the wind would be stronger on the other side.
I turned my head to the left, pressing my cheek against the stone. Cressner was leaning over the balcony, watching me.
'Enjoying yourself?' he asked affably.
He was wearing a brown camel's-hair overcoat.
'I thought you didn't have a coat,' I said.
'I lied,' he answered equably. 'I lie about a lot of things.'
'What's that supposed to mean?'
'Nothing . . . nothing at all. Or perhaps it does mean something. A little psychological warfare 6, eh, Mr Norris? I should tell you not to linger overlong. The ankles grow tired, and if they should give way . . .' He took an apple out of his pocket, bit into it, and then tossed it over the edge. There was no sound for a long time. Then, a faint and sickening plop. Cressner chuckled 7.
He had broken my concentration, and I could feel panic nibbling 8 at the edges of my mind with steel teeth. A torrent 9 of terror wanted to rush in and drown me. I turned my head away from him and did deep-breathing, flushing the panic away. I was looking at the lighted bank sign, which now said: 8.46, Time to Save at Mutual 10!
By the time the lighted numbers read 8.49, I felt that I had myself under control again. I think Cressner must have decided 11 I'd frozen, and I heard a sardonic 12 patter of applause when I began to shuffle 13 towards the corner of the building again.
I began to feel the cold. The lake had whetted 14 the edge of the wind; its clammy dampness bit at my skin like an auger 15. My thin jacket billowed out behind me as I shuffled 16 along. I moved slowly, cold or not. If I was going to do this, I would have to do it slowly and deliberately 17. If I rushed, I would fall.
The bank clock read 8.52 when I reached the corner. It didn't appear to be a problem - the ledge went right around, making a square corner - but my right hand told me that there was a crosswind. If I got caught leaning the wrong way, I would take a long ride very quickly.
I waited for the wind to drop, but for a long time it refused to, almost as though it were Cressner's willing ally. It slapped against me with vicious, invisible fingers, praying and poking 18 and tickling 19. At last, after a particularly strong gust had made me rock on my toes, I knew that I could wait for ever and the wind would never drop all the way off.
So the next time it sank a little, I slipped my right foot around and, clutching both walls with my hands, made the turn. The crosswind pushed me two ways at once, and I tottered 20. For a second I was sickeningly sure that Cressner had won his wager 21. Then I slid a step further along and pressed myself tightly against the wall, a held breath slipping out of my dry throat.
That was when the raspberry went off, almost in my ear.
Startled, I jerked back to the very edge of balance. My hands lost the wall and pinwheeled crazily for balance. I think that if one of them had hit the stone face of the building, I would have been gone. But after what seemed an eternity 22, gravity decided to let me return to the wall instead of sending down to the pavement forty-three stories below.
My breath sobbed 23 out of my lungs in a pained whistle. My legs were rubbery. The tendons in my ankles were humming like high-voltage wires. I had never felt so mortal. The man with the sickle 24 was close enough to read over my shoulder.
I twisted my neck, looked up, and there was Cressner, leaning out of his bedroom window four feet above me. He was smiling, in his right hand he held a New Year's Eve noisemaker.
'Just keeping you on your toes,' he said.
I didn't waste my breath. I couldn't have spoken above a croak 25 anyway. My heart was thudding crazily in my chest. I sidled five or six feet along, just in case he was thinking about leaning out and giving me a good shove. Then I stopped and closed my eyes and deep-breathed until I had my act back together again.
I was on the short side of the building now. On my right only the highest towers of the city bulked above me. On the left, only the dark circle of the lake, with a few pinpricks of light which floated on it. The wind whooped 26 and moaned.
The crosswind at the second corner was not so tricky 27, and I made it around with no trouble. And then something bit me.
I gasped 28 and jerked. The shift of balance scared me, and I pressed tightly against the building. I was bitten again. No not bitten but pecked. I looked down.
There was a pigeon standing 29 on the ledge, looking up with bright, hateful eyes.
You get used to pigeons in the city; they're as common as cab drivers who can't change a ten. They don't like to fly, and they give ground grudgingly 30, as if the sidewalks were theirs by squatters' rights. Oh, yes, and you're apt to find their calling cards on the hood 31 of your car. But you never take much notice. They may be occasionally irritating, but they're interlopers in our world.
But I was in his, and I was nearly helpless, and he seemed to know it. He pecked my tired right ankle again, sending a bright dart 32 of pain up my leg.
'Get,' I snarled 33 at it. 'Get out.'
The pigeon only pecked me again. I was obviously in what he regarded as his home; this section of the ledge was covered with droppings, old and new.
A muted cheeping from above.
I cricked my neck as far back as it would go and looked up. A beak 34 darted 35 at my face, and I almost recoiled 36. If I had, I might have become the city's first pigeon-induced casualty. It was Mama Pigeon, protecting a bunch of baby pigeons just under the slight overhang of the roof. Too far up to peck my head, thank God.
Her husband pecked me again, and now blood was flowing. I could feel it. I began to inch my way along again, hoping to scare the pigeon off the ledge. No way. Pigeons don't scare, not city pigeons, anyway. If a moving van only makes them amble 37 a little faster, a man pinned on a high ledge isn't going to upset them at all.
The pigeon backpedalled as I shuffled forward, his bright eyes never leaving my face except when the sharp beak dipped to peck my ankle. And the pain was getting more intense now; the bird was pecking at raw flesh . . . and eating it, for all I knew.
I kicked at it with my right foot. It was a weak kick, the only kind I could afford. The pigeon only fluttered its wings a bit and then returned to the attack. I, on the other hand, almost went off the side.
The pigeon pecked me again, again, again. A cold blast of wind struck me, rocking me to the limit of balance; pads of my fingers scraped at the bland 38 stone, and I came to rest with my left cheek pressed against the wall, breathing heavily.
Cressner couldn't have conceived of worse torture if he had planned it for ten years. One peck was not so bad. Two or three were little more. But that damned bird must have pecked me sixty times before I reached the wrought-iron railing of the penthouse opposite Cressner's.
Reaching that railing was like reaching the gates of heaven. My hands curled sweetly around the cold uprights and held on as if they would never let go.
Peck.
The pigeon was staring up at me almost smugly with its bright eyes, confident of my impotence and its own invulnerability. I was reminded of Cressner's expression when he had ushered 39 me out on to the balcony on the other side of the building.
Gripping the iron bars more tightly, I lashed 40 out with a hard, strong kick and caught the pigeon squarely. It emitted a wholly satisfying squawk and rose into the air, wings flapping. A few feathers, dove grey, settled back to the ledge or disappeared slowly down into the darkness, swan-boating back and forth 41 in the air.
Gasping 42, I crawled up on to the balcony and collapsed 43 there. Despite the cold, my body was dripping with sweat. I don't know how long I lay there, recuperating 44. The building hid the bank clock, and I don't wear a watch.
I sat up before my muscles could stiffen 45 up on me and gingerly rolled down my sock. The right ankle was lacerated and bleeding, but the wound looked superficial. Still, I would have to have it taken care of, if I ever got out of this. God know what germs pigeons carry around. I thought of bandaging the raw skin but decided not to. I might stumble on a tied bandage. Time enough later. Then I could buy twenty thousand dollars' worth of bandages.
I got up and looked longingly 46 into the darkened pent-house opposite Cressner's. Barren, empty, unlived in. The heavy storm screen was over this door. I might have been able to break in, but that would have been forfeiting 47 the bet. And I had more to lose than money.
When I could put it off no longer, I slipped over the railing and back on to the ledge. The pigeon, a few feathers worse for wear, was standing below his mate's nest, where the guano was thickest, eyeing me balefully. But I didn't think he'd bother me, not when he saw I was moving away.
It was very hard to move away - much harder than it had been to leave Cressner's balcony. My mind knew I had to, but my body, particularly my ankles, was screaming that it would be folly 49 to leave such a safe harbour. But I did leave, with Marcia's face in the darkness urging me on.
I got to the second short side, made it around the corner, and shuffled slowly across the width of the building. Now that I was getting close, there was an almost ungovernable urge to hurry, to get it over with. But if I hurried, I would die. So I forced myself to go slowly.
The crosswind almost got me again on the fourth corner, and I slipped around it thanks to luck rather than skill. I rested against the building, getting my breath back. But for the first time I knew that I was going to make it, that I was going to win. My hands felt like half4rozen steaks, my ankles hurt like fire (especially the pigeon-pecked right ankle), sweat kept trickling 50 in my eyes, but I knew I was going to make it. Halfway 51 down the length of the building, warm yellow light spilled out on Cressner's balcony. Far beyond I could see the bank sign glowing like a welcome-home banner. It was 10.48, but it seemed that I had spent my whole life on those five inches of ledge.
And God help Cressner if he tried to welsh. The urge to hurry was gone. I almost lingered. It was 11.09 when I put first my right hand on the wrought-iron balcony railing and then my left. I hauled myself up, wriggled 52 over the top, collapsed thankfully on the floor. . . and felt the cold steel muzzle 53 of a .45 against my temple.
I looked up and saw a goon ugly enough to stop Big Ben dead in its clockwork. He was grinning.
'Excellent!' Cressner's voice said from within. 'I applaud you, Mr Norris!' He proceeded to do just that. 'Bring him in, Tony.'
Tony hauled me up and set me on my feet so abruptly 54 that my weak ankles almost buckled 55. Going in, I staggered against the balcony door.
Cressner was standing by the living-room fireplace, sipping 56 brandy from a goblet 57 the size of a fish-bowl. The money had been replaced in the shopping bag. It still stood in the middle of the burnt-orange rug.
I caught a glimpse of myself in a small mirror on the other side of the room. The hair was dishevelled, the face pallid 58 except for two bright spots of colour on the cheeks. The eyes looked insane.
I got only a glimpse, because the next moment I was flying across the room. I hit the Basque chair and fell over it, pulling it down on top of me and losing my wind.
When I got some of it back, I sat up and managed: 'You lousy welsher. You had this planned.'
'Indeed I did,' Cressner said, carefully setting his brandy on the mantel. 'But I'm not a welsher, Mr Norris. Indeed no. Just an extremely poor loser. Tony is here only to make sure you don't do anything . . . ill-advised.' He put his fingers under his chin and tittered a little. He didn't look like a poor loser. He looked more like a cat with canary feathers on its muzzle. I got up, suddenly feeling more frightened than I had on the ledge.
'You fixed 59 it,' I said slowly. 'Somehow, you fixed it.'
'Not at all. The heroin 60 has been removed from your car. The car itself is back in the parking lot. The money is over there. You may take it and go.'
'Fine,' I said.
Tony stood by the glass door to the balcony, still looking like a leftover 61 from Halloween. The .45 was in his hand. I walked over to the shopping bag, picked it up, and walked towards the door on my jittery 62 ankles, fully 48 expecting to be shot down in my tracks. But when I got the door open, I began to have the same feeling that I'd had on the ledge when I rounded the fourth corner: I was going to make it.
Cressner's voice, lazy and amused, stopped me.
'You don't really think that old lady's-room dodge 63 fooled anyone, do you?'
I turned back slowly, the shopping bag in my arms. 'What do you mean?'
'I told you I never welsh, and I never do. You won three things, Mr Norris. The money, your freedom, my wife. You have the first two. You can pick up the third at the country morgue.'
I stared at him, unable to move, frozen in a soundless thunderclap of shock.
'You didn't really think I'd let you have her? he asked me pityingly. 'Oh, no. The money, yes. Your freedom, yes. But not Marcia. Still, I don't welsh. And after you've had her buried -'
I didn't go near him. Not then. He was for later. I walked towards Tony,. who looked slightly surprised until Cressner said in a bored voice: 'Shoot him, please.'
I threw the bag of money. It hit him squarely in the gun hand, and it struck him hard. I hadn't been using my arms and wrists out there, and they're the best part of any tennis player. His bullet went into the burnt-orange rug, and then I had him.
His face was the toughest part of him. I yanked the gun out of his hand and hit him across the bridge of the nose with the barrel. He went down with a single very weary grunt 64, looking like Rondo Hatton.
Cressner was almost out the door when I snapped a shot over his shoulder and said, 'Stop right there, or you're dead.'
He thought about it and stopped. When he turned around, his cosmopolitan 65 world-weary act had curdled 66 a little around the edges. It curdled a little more when he saw Tony lying on the floor and choking on his own blood.
'She's not dead,' he said quickly. 'I had to salvage 67 something, didn't I?' He gave me a sick, cheese-eating grin.
'I'm a sucker, but I'm not that big a sucker,' I said. My voice sounded lifeless, dead. Why not? Marcia had been my life, and this man had put her on a slab 68.
With a finger that trembled slightly, Cressner pointed 69 at the money tumbled around Tony's feet. 'That,' he said, 'that's chickenfeed. I can get you a hundred thousand. Or five. Or how about a million, all of it in a Swiss bank account? How about that? How about -,
'I'll make you a bet,' I said slowly.
He looked from the barrel of the gun to my face. 'A -'
'A bet,' I repeated. 'Not a wager. Just a plain old bet. I'll bet you can't walk around this building on the ledge out there.'
His face went dead pale. For a moment I thought he was going to faint. 'You . . .' he whispered.
'These are the stakes,' I said in my dead voice. 'If you make it, I'll let you go. How's that?'
'No,' he whispered. His eyes were huge, staring.
'Okay,' I said, and cocked the pistol.
'No!' he said, holding his hands out. 'No! Don't! I. . all right.' He licked his lips.
I motioned with the gun, and he preceded me out on to the balcony. 'You're shaking,' I told him. 'That's going to make it harder.'
'Two million,' he said, and he couldn't get his voice above a husky whine 70. 'Two million in unmarked bills.'
'No,' I said. 'Not for ten million. But if you make it, you go free. I'm serious.'
A minute later he was standing on the ledge. He was shorter than I; you could just see his eyes over the edge, wide and beseeching 71, and his white-knuckled hands gripping the iron rail like prison bars.
'Please,' he whispered. 'Anything.'
'You're wasting time,' I said. 'It takes it out of the ankles.'
But he wouldn't move until I had put the muzzle of the gun against his forehead. Then he began to shuffle to the right, moaning. I glanced up at the bank clock. It was 11.29.
I didn't think he was going to make it to the first corner. He didn't want to budge 72 at all, and when he did, he moved jerkily, taking risks with his centre of gravity, his dressing 73 gown billowing into the night.
He disappeared around the corner and out of sight at 12.01, almost forty minutes ago. I listened closely for the diminishing scream as the crosswind got him, but it didn't come. Maybe the wind had dropped. I do remember thinking the wind was on his side, when I was out there. Or maybe he was just lucky. Maybe he's out on the other balcony now, quivering in a heap, afraid to go any further.
But he probably knows that if I catch him there when I break into the other penthouse, I'll shoot him down like a dog. And speaking of the other side of the building, I wonder how he likes that pigeon.
Was that a scream? I don't know. It might have been the wind. It doesn't matter. The bank clock says 12.44. Pretty soon I'll break into the other apartment and check the balcony, but right now I'm just sitting here on Cressner's balcony with Tony's .45 in my hand. Just on the off-chance that he might come around that last corner with his dressing gown billowing out behind him.
Cressner said he's never welshed on a bet.
But I've been known to.