美国国家公共电台 NPR 'I Never Faked My Love For You': A Mother Opens Up After Her Suicide Attempt
时间：2019-01-17 作者：英语课 分类：2018年NPR美国国家公共电台8月
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DAVID GREENE, HOST:
It is Friday, which means it is time for StoryCorps. And today - a difficult conversation between a mother and daughter. In the spring of 2012, Emily Kwong was a college senior studying in New York, and just before finals, she received a disturbing phone call from her father. Her mother, Linda, who had been suffering from depression, had attempted suicide 1. At StoryCorps, Linda and Emily talk for the first time about what happened that day.
LINDA KWONG: I got up, and I was taking my morning medication, and I just didn't stop, and I took 180 pills. I didn't write a note. I just put the bottles back in the medicine cabinet 2 and went to bed. Your sister found me, and they took me to the hospital. The psychiatrist 3 came in, and he said, Linda, I have no idea how you're alive.
EMILY KWONG: I was so shocked 'cause I had known you my whole life as the most secure 4 person.
L. KWONG: Yeah, I actually faked a lot. I never faked my love for you, but I was suicidal since I was 14, so I was a good faker 5.
E. KWONG: Well, that's what was so puzzling about it. I described our family as a table, and you were the most important leg, so you disappearing just knocked the whole thing over.
L. KWONG: Yeah. When I was in the hospital, the hospital's tradition is they would play a little lullaby every time a baby's born, no matter what time of day or night. So on the psychiatric floor, we heard it. And I thought about when you were born, and they handed you to me, and I remember your eyes just locked on mine. And I just felt, wow, this is my daughter. But in that moment that I took those pills, I wasn't thinking of you, and that's hard to accept.
E. KWONG: I began to question so much about myself. And I thought if I spent too much time with you, I would become like you.
L. KWONG: I remember you saying to me, Mom, I couldn't even look at you for months. And it was terrifying, but I understood it. A child's job is to be a child, not to take care of their mother emotionally 6.
E. KWONG: I mean, I know it's not over yet, but seeing you come back from this, I couldn't be more proud of you.
L. KWONG: I can't believe that you can use the word proud, but it makes me feel like that bond 7 between us will always be there. And that means the world to me.
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- The number of suicide has increased.自杀案件的数量增加了。
- The death was adjudged a suicide by sleeping pills.该死亡事件被判定为服用安眠药自杀。
- I keep my collection of old china in the cabinet.我把古瓷器收藏品存放在橱子里。
- He had held many important offices in the French cabinet.他在法国内阁中任过许多重要职务。
- He went to a psychiatrist about his compulsive gambling.他去看精神科医生治疗不能自拔的赌瘾。
- The psychiatrist corrected him gently.精神病医师彬彬有礼地纠正他。
- He found a secure foothold and pulled himself up.他找到了一个稳固的踏脚处并爬了上去。
- Extra men are needed to secure the camp against attack.需要增加兵力以保护军营免受攻击。
- AJ gives us some pointers on how to spot a faker. AJ教我们几招来辨别冒牌货。
- She thought I was faker. 她认为我这只是在装模作样而已。
- a special school for emotionally disturbed children 为精神异常儿童开办的特殊学校
- A wide range of emotionally stressful events may trigger a relapse. 多种令人情绪紧张的事情都可能引起旧病复发。 来自《简明英汉词典》