美国国家公共电台 NPR The 'Young Black Man' Who Reluctantly Became An NRA-Certified Instructor

SHEREEN MARISOL MERAJI, HOST:

Journalist RJ Young came of age in Oklahoma but kept his distance from guns and gun culture there. So it was a surreal turn of events when, years later, he became an NRA-certified 1 pistol instructor 2. These days, RJ Young's guns are locked up, and he wants to have nothing to do with them. He writes about this journey in his upcoming book, "Let It Bang." Young says he first got into guns because he was hoping to bond with his girlfriend's dad, Charles.

RJ YOUNG: I was dating a woman whose father was the only guy - or seemed to be the only guy - in Oklahoma who could give a damn about football, especially Oklahoma football.

MERAJI: Wow.

YOUNG: And I had no way to get in other than Lizzie. That was the thing we had in common. But if this was going to work, I needed to be able to talk with Charles about something that wasn't Lizzie. The first thing he did for me ended up being one of the coolest things that he's ever done for me. But, at the time, it felt very threatening because I am a black man in his house. So he shakes my hand after Lizzie introduces me to her father and her mother. And he just bolts, you know? He leaves the room. He goes down the hallway. He comes back, and he's got the biggest damn revolver I've ever seen in my life. It's like a flaming scimitar to me.

MERAJI: (Laughter).

YOUNG: And he hands it to me. I'm looking at Lizzie. I'm looking at her mother, Nancy. And I'm going, does anybody else - does this resonate with anybody else? And, you know, I give it back to him, and I don't make a big deal out of it. I asked Lizzie later. I was like, what was that? Oh, he's very proud of it. He wants you to know that? And putting together that that was one of the first things that he had done as an act of friendship, as an act of, hi, nice to meet you, I want to get to know the man. And if this is the way to get to know the man, let's get started.

MERAJI: And then, you realize, oh, my God. In order to actually have this conversation, I need to know more about the subject. And you ended up buying - now, I'm trying to remember. You ended up buying your Glock first, right? And then, you went to shoot it? Is that how it worked?

YOUNG: I think you got the time frame correct. But what I actually tried to do first was just learn everything I could to know about guns without actually picking up a gun, which is how I came to understand and know that I wanted or needed a Glock - right? - as opposed to any other sort of pistol. And that is how we ended up going to the gun show.

MERAJI: Talk to me about the gun show. Tell me the story of you, RJ Young, being at the gun show with Charles Stafford (ph).

YOUNG: I grew up around baseball card shows. My dad sold baseball cards. I collect baseball cards. So I came to find out that going to a gun show was a lot like going to a trade show. But it was different for me because I had a very, very hard time finding someone who was not white at the world's largest gun show - which is in Tulsa, Okla. It's put on by Wanenmacher's. And we eventually find a gun that I like. And I'm willing to pay for it, but he is insistent 3. He wants to buy me my first gun.

MERAJI: You're taking the gun that your father-in-law - or assumed to be father-in-law - bought for you, which was a Glock 26...

YOUNG: Right.

MERAJI: And you are at the gun range, and you're shooting it for the first time. I just want to know your feelings.

YOUNG: OK. We get all of our pistols out. He said, yeah. Just stick it in there, rack the slide, aim and, you know, hit the target. So I fire, and I miss almost everything. And he walks over to me, takes the gun out of my hand, turns it sideways and says, don't hold it like this. I mean, that was hurtful to me because I was already in a state of anxiety. I was already afraid of what this weapon can do. I was extremely reverent 4, still extremely reverent about guns. I felt like he was really just turning the knife on me. You know what? To hell with this. I have to get better at this than anybody else on earth. I have to.

MERAJI: And then, you took that instruction and everything that you learned. And you decided 5, OK, not only am I going to have my concealed 6 carry license 7. I'm going to take it one step further. I'm going to be an NRA pistol instructor, and I want to be certified.

YOUNG: Well, if I get this certification, nobody can tell me [expletive].

MERAJI: (Laughter).

YOUNG: Like, I get to pull this thing out of my wallet and say, OK, here are my credentials 8.

MERAJI: You're really good at this. You could actually defend yourself with a gun, yet you choose not to. And I just - I am having a hard time understanding that.

YOUNG: Shereen, I'm a black man, and that carries lots of connotations. And I don't get to - let me put it another way. I am a black man who walked into the studio with a Lincoln High Jesus Shuttlesworth jersey 9 on, jumper jeans and Air Force 270s. I wear dreads 10. I have a beard. I do not get to say how people immediately receive me. But how people immediately receive me, it's like they might - downstairs at the front desk where, yo, messenger, go around to the dock or a gangbanger, you know? I'm the author. I'm the guy coming in to be interviewed. I'm not the guy picking up a package. I'm the guy going after a Ph.D. I'm the guy who wrote the book. I'm the guy who's not been to prison. I'm the guy who doesn't have any misdemeanors, felonies on his record. I'm the Eagle Scout 11. I have to say all these things to put people at ease. A gun ain't going to help that.

So I put it down, you know? It's locked up. But I have guns because I'm a black man, and they were taken away from me. And that is a history and a right that I don't get to forget. I don't get to act like that's not a big deal. But I also don't have to feed into the argument that I've got to carry a gun everywhere I go to be safe.

MERAJI: Well, RJ Young, thank you so much.

YOUNG: Thank you for having me. I appreciate the opportunity to talk about this.